As I write this I am sitting in front of a fireplace without my wife and son at a summer camp after spending the entire day working outside. I am tired, sore, mildly under the influence and content. I believe that it is important to temporarily remove yourself from whatever your day-to-day situation is so you can evaluate and appreciate what you have. Leaving CT and coming here to work all day with my hands surrounded by wonderful people has given me that opportunity. So what has this evaluation of my situation revealed? Exactly what this picture my wife took reveals. I have an awesome son who I get to spend every day with. I have a loving wife who supports my choice to be a stay at home dad. I love my family and get to spend every day taking care of them. What more could a dedicated father ask for?
I have not talked much about it but before I was a stay at home dad most of my identity came from my work. When I first became a SAHD I was unsure of myself. I felt like I was in limbo and while I publicly trumpeted my new role I still had a hard time letting go of my old identity. It has taken me a long time to come to terms with this change and I believe that the struggle to do so was what drove me to write this blog. These last few weeks it has been difficult for me to write and I have not been able to understand until now.
My writer’s block came from being too happy to write. I think that much of my motivation to write has come from irritation and general angst. I have not had either in abundance for a while because I have fully embraced my role as a stay at home dad. I have always enjoyed spending time with my son but these last few weeks have been extra special. He is doing lots of new stuff and has developed quite the little personality. While all this is true the biggest change has been in me not him. I was doing quite well in my relatively new role as a stay at home dad for the first few months but lately I have gone from being in a good place to being in a great place. I went from liking spending all day with my son to loving spending all day with him. Simply put, I am happier.
So how have I overcome this writers block? I took time to reflect on my life and I came away with a new appreciation for what I have and what I am doing. I discovered that if I focus on what is best in my life I can motivate myself to write more consistently. Here’s hoping it continues to work!